My Christmas List

I find that I don't blog very often because I don't really like to write. I often have something to say or something I want to say and in this day and age something I want to blog about. But I don't have the energy to write. I do like to talk and tell stories. Any of you who spend time with me after not spending time with me know how much I like to tell stories. And when I finally do find it in myself to write I just pretend that I'm talking to you and I write down my words. Which is why I hate research papers. Because, really, who could read a research paper out loud. I'm not sure why I'm not more into writing stories since I like telling stories. But, in any case, I'm not.

All that aside, one new thing at Union these days are "Feed Your Mind" discussion groups led by students in the Creative Leadership class. Although I thoroughly enjoy them (well, the two I've been to) I usually go only when Matt is leading out and he says, "Do you want to come?" since they are supposed to fill a certain amount of time with discussion and that's easier with people (and I suspect, even easier when one of the people is me, because, as I have alluded to, I like to talk.)

In any case, if nothing else, I enjoy discussing things with teachers (like Mr Blake, Barry, and today Kim Steiner) and other students. I wonder if we could somehow take that concept into education....

So today the topic was the commercialization of Christmas. What I enjoy most about the discussions is not that we answer any questions, but that I come to some conclusions for myself. I'm forced to think about what I believe and it helps me bring solidity to the abstract.

Today's conclusions (in no particular order):

• Christmas is commercialized. So is practically everything in life.
• Commercialization can be good (Vaccinations? Generally I'm opposed to capitalism and all that but maybe there's some good in it for right now).
• We think the commercialism is very bad at Christmas because we keep letting it get worse the rest of the year. (i.e. if I buy the kids everything they want all year round, can I blame them for wanting really big things at Christmas?)
• Blaming the media or the stores is silly. Almost stupid. They give us what we ask for.
• We're probably not going to change everyone, but surely we can do something.

And that's what it comes down to. What can we do? What can I do? I can let it stop here with me. Oh, I'll buy a few gifts this year and I'll enjoy receiving too. I'm honest enough to admit that. And I will realize that the season is about more than gifts. I will laugh and smile (and get grumpy some too) until well past dawn because it will be the first time this year that my whole family is together. I will remember how much I have and how many have less. I will remember the gift that was shared with humanity on the first Christmas--even if it was at a different time of year--and try to find ways to share the gift, life eternal, with others. I will go out a couple days before Christmas and buy the best leftover scraggly tree at the Caledonia Garden Centre and decorate it, not as a shrine to the commercialization of Christmas, but as a reminder of my childhood--of the innocence and wonder that allows me to still put out cookies and milk even though our chimney is very narrow. And a few days later, because the New Year holiday is very important in our family, I will reflect on this year. And where I have come. How I have grown. I will thank God for life and for love. And I will look forward to another year with him. And that is my Christmas list.